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The Inner Urge

In the distance there is an image of a long silver-coloured ladder. This ladder is very wide and the distance between the rungs is correspondingly large.

The styles of the ladder are placed on the planet and looking up I can see that the top is leaning against the clouds and on top of these clouds stands the teacher. He is very tall, has long silvery hair and is dressed in a brilliant white habit, draped around him in undulating folds. He holds his hands obliquely forward and his open palms say: ‘Come to me, one and all’.

Towards the upper part of the ladder I can see some humans climbing up hesitantly, rung by rung. The more I look down, the busier it gets on the ladder.


The climbing is not very fast as it is a long way up and, compared to the ladder and the teacher, the humans are all very small.

It is a great effort for them to get from one rung to the next; some are trying to pull themselves up to the next rung while others use the stiles of the ladder as climbing poles. There are also humans sitting on a rung as if to catch their breath.

Because of the width of this ladder several humans are occupying a rung at the same time. Some humans are using their elbows, pushing others aside; and some think they can move up faster by pushing off against the bodies of their fellow climbers.

On the lower part of the ladder there is a swarm of bodies, all alongside and on top of each other, almost fighting to improve their position, so as to reach the next rung as quickly as possible.

In this mass I notice a variety of costumes: Mexican, Spanish, Greek, Indonesian, Chinese, Norwegian, Indian, Dutch and so on. There are also English costumes. Various cultural groups are present.

At the foot of the ladder on the ground is a massive crowd of humans waiting for their turn to climb the ladder.

Looking at these masses present on the planet, I see several humans in the crowd who tower high above the others, and who are somehow creating order in this sea of humans.

For instance, I can see Ghandi, I can see a pope, and there are other religious leaders and various rulers of notoriety in the history of this planet, including Hitler.

Some humans choose to follow a specific human which leads to a very natural separation of these masses into different groups.

I am now standing in the crowd myself and around me I can see humans of all ages, from very young to very old. I also see big differences in class – from richly dressed humans to ragged tramps.

From this position I turn to look at the ladder.

At the bottom, where all those humans are waiting their turn to take the first steps on the ladder, there is a small transparent glass house in which a man is sitting.

I associate this with a ticket office at a fair, where one has to pay before entering a fairground attraction.

Then I find myself back on top of the clouds and I see the teacher there, but I can’t see any humans. The teacher has a beautiful radiance and the whole atmosphere here is very peaceful. There is a wholeness, a 'FULLNESS'.

In this image we show that within every human being there is an imprint of the World of Wisdom from which he feels the urge to be in contact with us.

Without exception and without depending on cultural rules, a human feels nostalgia, often still oblivious that it is a nostalgic feeling for the World of Wisdom.

The quest for this contact will initially be in a form which is usual within one’s own culture.

You see that order is being created in the crowd, because one follows a particular leader, a guru or a religious ideology, hoping that this way it will be easier to contact us.

But even though humans think that it can be done in this way, every human will have to find his own entrance and that is what the ticket office symbolizes; it is where everybody has to pay. This payment is not in the form of cash. Payment can be seen in terms of sacrifice.

It is a matter of letting go of much of what has been learned up till now, so that the foot of the ladder will gradually become accessible.

It does not mean that when a human thinks, God has this intention for me, and I have to make this sacrifice, that a human is then instantly in touch with us; because only from that moment onwards does he start to climb the ladder.

The letting go of old patterns, the sacrifice that the human makes to get in touch with us, is at the same time the key to the first step on the ladder which ultimately leads to the World of Wisdom. We often see that humans get cross with us, they are disappointed and say: ‘But I paid for it, I have suffered enough and now I am entitled to a place next to God, isn’t that so?’

It means that the human believes he can bring his journey to a successful end in the space of just one lifetime and that he deserves a place in heaven, but this is an image created by the standards of the leaders who are in contact with the moon energy.

It is not that we disappoint humans, but they are disappointed because they have expectations, created by all sorts of cultural backgrounds, standards and religious rules.

We see that when a human dies and the entity hopes to make contact with us, it is disappointed and then needs some time to find peace of mind again.

That is why we think it reprehensible that the many forms of religion and texts from esoteric books raise expectations to the extent that they actually reinforce this disappointment.

The urge to get in touch with us is always there, but this has nothing to do with rules, religions or leaders, who think they know the truth. We can actually say that a human who poses as a leader, has not yet passed the ticket office.

He has only felt that there is more and using the moon energy he has created a vision of what that looks like.

We know the numerous existing forms and images and we can see that a human thinks, If I do this or that, God will see and help me and then I will have earned a place in heaven.

We see that this is a difficult journey for a human as, especially because of all those rules and expectations, he thinks that the journey to contact us is always an arduous one.

But we know that it is not that difficult, if only he would let go of these expectations.

The human will then tumble to the game of the thinking hat, and this is equivalent to paying at the ticket office, and he becomes receptive to the multiple possibilities and to a wider perspective.

This image gives an impression of how the human experiences us through the different forms of religion and cultural rules, and he thinks he knows what our intention is. The image requires the human to recognize the urge and he will also be asked whether he dares to take the step to follow that urge.

You can see in this image that we are towering high above everything.

It is not that we are making ourselves bigger, and you may accuse us of megalomania, but we can see how the human, because of the many expectations and rules, makes himself very small compared to us.

We also showed that a human is searching outside himself whereas if he were to turn inward, he would already find himself on the first step on this ladder. Not to be with us in one simple leap, but climbing this ladder would be a whole lot easier for him, than when he follows the rules of the various cultures, kneeling and praying, burning incense and candles or following techniques. This human becomes exhausted when he tries to reach us through rules and regulations. This is a pity and it may sound hard, but he will not reach the top of the ladder.

That can only be achieved by delving beyond the thinking hat and making contact with one’s essence, which already knows what it is like on this cloud.


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